Step Back In

I’m deviating from my normal posts to get a little more personal. About a month ago, I was ill with a lower respiratory infection and was laid up for a week. I hadn’t been that sick in a very long time. I honestly can’t pin point a specific moment, but during this time something in me shifted. I realized I no longer wanted to live the way I’d been living; or rather, not living. I had lost any semblance of joy a few years prior when my mom passed away suddenly; and the tiniest of obstacles, challenges etc. have kept me there (struggling for contentment and for faith in spite of circumstances). My illness was a blessing in that it forced me to slow down long enough to have this revelation. Since then, I have made some changes in my life, including going to Christian counseling, praying with intention and thanksgiving, and watching Christian focused programming every night before bed (my favorite being “Better Together” on TBN, where a group of Christian women, talk about real life; while being vulnerable, authentic and always focusing back on God’s word. Ah, yes, God’s word. This is the one thing I still have not done… personally opened up my Bible. I know that this is where God will reveal Himself more fully to me; but I just haven’t been able to get there. Still, I’m getting closer, I can feel it. I write all this to encourage you. If you have found your joy waning and it seems like you’re just existing, rather than living in the fullness of what God desires for you; you can change that today. Take the first step and then another. And if you stop there for a bit before the 3rd step comes, give yourself grace. Tell those around you, you’re ready and ask them to help you stay on track. You are worth it and so are the ones you love who will benefit from your change; not to mention your opportunity to glorify God in the process.  ❤